Putting my life back together

[NewLeaf]

I could tell you that you have to stop reading into things but when I find out how you do that you will be the first person I tell.

Haha, thanks Gotan, please do. I feel like it will come with the detachment, I'm just clearly not there yet.

Is she still seeing OM?

bdub, she's definitely still seeing OM, they work together at a kung fu school, and I'm pretty sure they still text at all hours. I'm not sure if she's still "seeing" him, but I'm assuming yes and just trying my hardest not to think or care about either.

I'm curious to read about your W reaction to your new life.

Hope, I had actually just read your thread when I saw your note. My heart goes out to you, I'm sorry you find yourself here, but there is so much love and support and good advice on these threads. I'm new here too, and I've just been reading as much as I can.

As far as my GAL activities, it' the only thing keeping me sane. I've found running really doesn't help much, my mind wanders back to my sitch and it's frustrating. The Krav Maga and Dance lessons have been great though. They both demand full attention or I'll get hurt or step on someone's toes, so I forget about everything but the person in front of me.

I've also spent some time volunteering, yesterday I helped out my old boy scout troop at a fundraiser. I've met some cool new people, reconnected with some old friends, and for a few fleeting moments have been able to imagine what a happy life without my W might look like. I'm trying to make myself a stronger, more resilient person, because I think there's a better than even chance she leaves me. Maybe things go south with OM and we wind up together after all, but either way I need this.

As far as her reaction, she was really, really, cold at first. She said she was hurt that I moved on so fast, that she didn't think I was treating her even as well as I treated my old room mates. Was upset that I wasn't specific about where I was going. Hurt that I was so happy about it and that I didn't ask how the martial art compared to hers, since it's such big part of her life. We talked through some of it and seemed to be in a better place yesterday.

Journey is just beginning, and I know it will be really long one. Will keep you posted. Thanks all for the replies. *hugs*