WAWs or Wayward M: How to SHOW change is afoot?

[DBinSF]

Strangely, seeing her SO off kilter gives me room to take some space. They say you get to know people when the chips are down. I'm investing 5-10 hours a week in therapy and 12-step. I send love and kindness to her in my prayers and mediation. She's waking up wishing I was dead and telling me she HATES me when she communicates with me. I understand she's hurt more than I can comprehend, but HATE is a strong word. It's ugly. It's not who or how I want to be.