need to GAL

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H and I are only legally 'married' because of my immigration status. He is mentally single and has told me that he can do whatever he wants and that we aren't together anymore. Marriage counseling is not an option. He thinks he is right and he is done. He says I'm all to blame and he wishes he never met me. I had set the boundary mentally and was able to achieve success with it the past few weeks but I swayed last night. Then, I saw that he was communicating with ow. Looks like this relationship started last week or 2. Tonight, I let my feelings hey the most of me. I went through cheese less tunnels and got what I always get when I do that. I was mad thinking that he hasn't spent much time with the baby. It made me mad since he went to bed early last night so he could wake up early and drive 6 hrs out of town to see his ow. But, all week, he had seen the baby for 4 hrs. So I started texting since the baby had fever and cold. I went into mommy mode and told him she needed her dad to be there for her and that he is always gone. Of course, he told me I make him feel like a piece of sh*t and how he hates me and wishes he never had to deal with me. He was so furious that he even tthreatened me by saying he is fine not seeing the baby if that means he doesn't have to see me. What a di*k. Well the. He calls back and tells me he wants to see her. I tell him she needs someone who can keep his promises he made for her. Too emotional, shouldn't have done it. Acc to the book, I did everything wrong on this text and call. I'm just so disappointed that he puts himself before the baby. At this point, I'm not even thinking right. I'm not looking at the bigger picture and I just feel like raising my white flag without thinking about what may happen if I sign the papers. I need to do some research on immigration status and custody. I'm just so hurt and my daughter deserves better.im just a mess today.