PERSEVERANCE is Stubbornness.... with a Purpose.

[daring]

Oh Shining- I can see the turmoil you are in and want to send you a big hug!!!

(((Shining)))

Your situation made me think of Raine and how her H would send her game requests at all hours just to "keep in touch'.
I have learned form a recent realization of seeing how far my H has to go, that they do reach out in weird ways.

There is a point where you feel more able to let go, I'm starting to get there, but I still have my days when I just want to feel I matter to him. I get it.
Interestingly digging in through the pain was not something I had a resistance to, if it was just my issues. But once it was the way he responded to me and how that triggered my issues- whole different ball game. Because then I felt flawed, and not good enough, and WTF????!!!

Sending you strength and good thoughts. But you've got this- you have much more insight than you realize- I can see it.