I'm getting there. Starting to feel more like myself, and very interested to see who I'm turning out to be. The idea of having strong boundaries that protect me really appeals. Taking off my ring and not hanging on my H's every glance, being my sunny self and having a life, and realizing I could be that person FREELY even though my H was in the room (during the long kid event today) -- that felt like a roar. I felt strong boundaries, "I will not feel inadequate because of your selfish choices," and it was such a relief.
Tomorrow, church and a small religious study that I'm interested in, an impromptu brunch with friends to celebrate the gorgeous fall weather, and I'll cap off the evening with a spy movie (finishing the book tonight). And I feel like myself.
I hope I can keep this up. Over drinks & dessert with friends tonight I felt a twinge of missing my actual husband, the charming guy I used to be married to. I hope that fella turns up and meets me someday. We would make a cute couple.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
