Yea, that acceptance thingy....is tough chit to get.
Letting him go? The hardest part. But I looked at it as loving him so much and seeing that the only shot he had of making it through this, was me allowing him to.
I wanted so much for him to be whole. I wanted him to find his way. Letting go doesnt mean giving up. Unless you want it to.
It just means that you are hearing him and honoring your marriage and your vows. Sounds crazy, I know. But its true.
Accepting that you this is how it is right now, and knowing in your heart you will not always feel as you do today, is the goal, S.
The way to let go is this. You just start to work on you. You decide who you want to be. Each day you try to be her. Some days you will make it, some you wont, but that should always be the goal.
You allow yourself to feel what you do. Then you allow it to wash over you.
You start to really believe that whatever is supposed to happen, will.
You put your marriage safely away and you decide that you are going to grow.
You understand that this is his journey and your part in it is to get out of the way.
Its a process, S. But you can do it.
Love him enough to let him do this. Love yourself enough to take a leap of faith.
