I get that, H, about not getting how he could turn it off. I dont think they turn it off. I think they are so broken that they stuff it down. I think they feel so badly about themselves that they cant handle feelings of love for someone else.
What they have is built on a foundation of brokenness and self loathing. It is a house of cards. It will fall.
But that doesnt really matter. What matters is you.
