Hey Heather, been awhile since I have posted to you.
Just wanted to say you are doing well. Moving forward. Taking control of your life. All good things. Good for you.
I noticed that you wrote you are sorry you werent the one who could make him happy. I think one of the most important things we should learn on this journey is this - we cannot make someone else happy. That has to come from within.
Our job in this life is to find what fills us up and find peace with ourselves. That's where happiness lies. If we get to share all of that with someone else.....bonus.
I know the idea of the divorce is really scary. It's a tough thing. But once you get it behind you, you will feel lighter. It's a business transaction. The feelings reside in your heart.
Which brings me to the next part. What you had with Smokey was real. It happened. The love was real. The feelings were real. It is part of your life story. Dont allow all the other stuff to taint those memories. Store them safely away. They are yours.
