Let's recap my week in DBing/kicking a $$ at life:
1) H was away all week. I was not feeling well. Yet i still took great care of D in her first full week of preK, and had a good week at work despite nightly wake ups (my own PLUS D's some nights!)
2) H requested yet more schedule changes. I acknowledged that travel and arranging schedule must be difficult, and that I know he would avoid the conflict if he could. (Huge 180 for me...to give him benefit of the doubt and not be resentful).
3) made a welcome back daddy sign for him with d. He hasn't acknowledged it and i haven't gotten upset about that.
4) trying to really take my coach's words to heart and shift my mindset... It must be hard for him when I act in new, better, unexpected ways. I complicate his WA narrative and make it harder for him to justify leaving me (as opposed to him thinking Divorce is easy and honky-dory for us both).
5) I think i am doing a decent job of setting boundaries while remaining detached yet "neighbor-friendly".
6) Getting used to not wearing my ring. Shared old dating stories with colleagues without breaking down.
7) Got through disappointing my mom over holiday fiasco ("oh, but I already invited your aunt and cousin!") She caught herself after that and didn't press it further, which I appreciate very much.
8) My MIL called me last night while I was out with friends to share a story about D3 (before her family bday dinner w/o me). I didn't drop everything to talk to her. Called her later.. told her I appreciate her sharing the story, and hoped she had a good celebration. No "miss you" or lingering goodbyes. Must complicate her narrative, too..though I'm not sure what hers is.
This cold is such a pain I actually busted out my neti pot today! Hopefully some rest will help. H agreed to keep D till after dinner tonight, so I will only have bedtime on my plate tonight.
