Thinking about you a lot. Your compassionate and clear wisdom have been a true godsend to me these last few months. And it hurts my heart to think that it's hard for you to have that same compassion for yourself.
I was spending some time last night wandering around the MLC boards. (Don't ask why-- just went down a black hole!). But I realized that the tone on this board is much more my style-- let go of anger, work on yourself, be the best YOU you can be without analyzing or worrying about every little thing our crazy WAS do or say. We can't control them, or anyone else (especially adolescent daughters-- and I can give you plenty of pointers on that if you are interested!). But we CAN control ourselves.
I'm totally rambling right now, and I'm not responding in particular to something you posted, but just wanted to reiterate what the wise labug said-- focus on YOU YOU YOU. Your H is a wackadoodle right now (maybe forever??). And there is no sense trying to make sense of that.
It's so hard to not be hyper-tuned in to what they say and do (boy am I one to talk!), but the more we can tune it out, the easier this will all be and the stronger we will feel. I don't know if you or I can Bust our Divorce. But we CAN kick a$$ at life, no matter what gets thrown our way. We are here for you, Maybell. You are a rockstar. Go ahead and ROAR! (i have a story about that, too, by the way). ((( ))))
