S, dont get me wrong, understanding why is important because you dont want to keep doing the same things over and over.
What I was doing was getting so hung up on understanding why that I didnt do what I needed to do in pushing feeling them and then letting them go.
Those pings you feel when you read something here, yep, pay close attention to that. You will read the vets writing, if it stings, it matters.
It does succk that we have to go through this. Succks that we have to have our lives turned upside down when we didnt ask for it.
I know you dont see this now. Those that are new to this dont. But there will be a day when you look back and say to yourself, I wish I didnt have to learn all of that in the way that I did, but I am grateful for it.
Through all the destruction this caused in my life, and the ramifications I still feel, I see that. I believe that.
I so understand what you mean when you write that you are afraid of growing past him.
I am always honest and it could very well happen. Thats the truth.
But, I have seen marriages restored that are better than they were before. They were glad they weathered the toughest of storms and came out the other side stronger.
The thing that I want you to really believe, my friend, is that no matter what, you will be ok.
There are no guarantees in life. We all just do the best we can. Hopefully, we find happiness in knowing that we did.
