I want to clarify this: You apologize for a lot of things. We have no dog in this fight other than wanting you and your kids to be OK. Let go of the misplaced sense of responsibility to us.

That was rather inartfully stated.

You aren't responsible for our my feelings or anyone else's, here or IRL. If I would feel disappointed in a choice you made, that's about me and my need to control, or feelings or superiority or god complex, whatever. those feelings are mine, all mine, rising from my stuff.

There's only one person you need to answer to, you.

If you take a situation and really tease that out, it can bring so much relief and clarity.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss