Maybell XI

[Maybell]

Yep, all good. H's turn to keep the kids this weekend, but they have a big sports thing so I've seen him all morning. First time he's seen me with my ring off. He didn't say anything but I saw him check and he looked startled. I've been friendly but remote, not sitting next to him. He sent several texts yesterday, one with a flyer to a concert "I can't go because I have the kids that weekend but you might like to" and a Facebook post that referenced something I've been doing with the kids. He's tried to catch my eye a couple of times and when he does I return his smile. I feel a great relief of the pressure to attract him. If it happens naturally we'll see what happens but for the moment it's nice to not be focused on him (even though that whole list makes it sound like I have been).

I have a job interview on Tuesday and a few other things that are very encouraging have been happening in that area too. I'm not excited about the Tuesday one and was worried about what I'd do if offered the job, which made me aware of how weak my boundaries are. So that will be a practice in a couple of ways.

All good things!!