Thank you, uR, Mighty, and Bright for the support. Bright, yep, that's the reason I came to this board. I don't want a D.
I'm feeling a lot of anxiety the past few days. I had terrible nightmares last night. I'm dreading the closing of the house. Absolutely dreading it. It held such significance when we bought it. I know it sounds silly. I also know it's the best thing now. It has to go away. Too many bad memories there now. Memories that were bad for H before I knew it. It's part of the old life that has to die. The old M.
H has been almost NC for the past few days. He's not sending the friendly texts, good mornings, words are shorter. I'm not reading much meaning into this, other than it's just part of the flailing about crazy cycling they do, and it just is.
H is packing the kitchen and sent a few texts asking if I want stuff. I said no.
There is nothing I can do. Just staying out of the way. Still feeling in my gut that H doesn't really want to be doing all this, but he doesn't know how to stop hurting. It's so sad, and so out of control. I have backed waaaaayyyy off, though. Today was especially difficult. I caught myself many times looking at my phone. I had to get up and get a drink of water sometimes and stop myself.
