Really focus on treating yourself well during this time.
This is a long journey.
Do you have any local support either in a church group or Alanon or Divorce care group.
Whatever way your story goes you will need local support in addition to these boards. Its the support of loving friends and family that have saved me from becoming bitter.
I am so grateful today for my family. I am really so so lucky - I have 2 healthy beautiful smart kids.
When I backslide mentally I now have tools to get my PMA back.
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13