Days are so weird. I was having a decent day yesterday and then I watched the ending of "Bachelor in Paradise" and saw people professing their love for each other as well as crying over "breaking up" and I was bawling and screaming (in my head) at the TV "why are you crying? You've known him for 2 weeks! Imagine 23 years and 3 kids later and now he's saying he wants to break up! THAT hurts! This is nothing!" I was also thinking "Man, I used to have a H who loved me like that but I don't anymore..." Yikes. I need to avoid shows like that.
Today is going better. Got insurance license all officially renewed and valid again, in case I need it. Spoke to another lawyers office to set up consultation, hopefully for next week.
H is still almost constantly on my mind. I can forget for a while while I do that math practice I am doing before doing the assessment I need to do to get back into college (it's amazing how much we forget!) but I can only do that for so long before I go mind numb.
Going out of town for family birthday parties this weekend. I'm going to do my best not to tell anyone what is going on because nothing IS yet, officially, and most of them would not understand my standing for the M, given our circumstances. I am truly just praying that H is still in there (or will come out again while I am still standing) and we can restore this M one day.
Me- 40 H- 41 S8, D5, S4 M 19 y T 23 Bomb drop 6/2013 H asked for/filed for D 9/2014 22 yo OW discovered 9/19/14 they're engaged and living together
