Need to figure out how to move forward (thread #4)

[shodan]

other things to note...I have been having a pretty good couple of days, really staying positive. At the school event, I talked to a bunch of people, was very social, made jokes, etc. Not that I want a D in my M, but I am getting closer to that being an OK result. I know that I will be fine either way. Of course, last night, I wanted to hold my W and just treat her like my W. But I could not do that. I need to detach.

I am seeing some changes in her. I have no idea whether or not she ended things with the OM. If I had to guess, she is cooling things with him, perhaps only texting. She is not traveling next week (or at least that is her plan) so if she really was in a full blown A I would not think she would go 10-12 days without seeing him.

I know this is mind reading and she likely is trying to keep me close so she has me as an option. But I continue to GAL and detach. GALing has been huge...gets my mind off of my situation, which improves my PMA. Off to see my IC soon and then am meeting a friend for dinner and drinks at 6pm. Will be good to laugh and just get out.

Tomorrow we have soccer for D10 but I think my W and I are going to separate yoga classes, so I think we will have somewhat limited contact. My plan at soccer is to be SUPER social and/or just play with S7 the whole time. Detaching feels good. Makes me feel stronger. More confident.