You are more than due for some "me time" and there is no pressure that you need to reconcile or focus on your H. Take this time for yourself to focus on you and see what you want and how you feel. You may even go back and forth.
And as others have said or hinted at, DB is not about staying married. It is about handling this crappy stuff in the best way possible. And through that process becoming the best person you can be. In the end you may realize that the best thing to do is to split up. That's fine too!
