I agree Nitaf with what Cindy says...boy do I feel your pain and know exactly how you feel right now. I myself was there a year ago and it's brutal, but I survived, my H is back home and we're working, I think anyways, towards a better M.
No matter how bad things seem they will get better, you will become stronger, you will become someone you never thought you could be...just stick with dbing and the BB.
