You know what, Live? Your post means the world to me. I really hope something sunk in with him. I don't know, but I've been a bit of a mess since. Maybe because of his non-reaction (which is so typical at this point- I don't understand why the last two times I have ripped into him, it seems like he just wants to hear it- weird and non-argumentative). Maybe I'm a mess bc he is not saying, "I f'ed up! I really want you!", Maybe because he chose her over me? I really don't know why, and there is probably not a specific reason. There is a lot going on in there.
But your post made me think, and I HOPE that he heard something! That he gets something. I hope he is feeling the emotional turmoil that I am. Probably not, he has quite a distraction.
But he said he was happy with her. He has got something for her, clearly. And when I asked him if he loved her, he would not answer and asked why it is relevant. UGH!
I do think he cares what I think, but would never admit it. If he did, it would sound so insincere.
Heather, thank you so much for the support!! You made me think a lot too, about the depth of happiness. His mind is obviously so occupied with my kids. I guess it just hurts a little that there is no room for me. Why do I care???
