Thanks, Live. I am feeling some serious emotions right now. I have never felt hate like this in my life. I am at the peak of my anger right now (I hope). I am so frustrated.
Things at work have been good but bad. I had a really bad year at work. I couldn't focus. I told my boss awhile ago that I knew reports were not going to come back good and that I was so sorry and that I wont let her down in the future. Well they came back bad, just what I expected. Things have been much better lately, and it has been a savior for me lately. However, the past year is still catching up to me.
I got a major blow today because of it. My boss talked with me (2 of them) and they were both very supportive and said they knew I am great and that this does not reflect my work abilities, etc. She was even crying.
I broke down. My son had a health scare this morning and then that. I am really getting to the point that everyday I get a major kick in the gut. It will not stop. For two years, even before bd, with other family and stuff.
I was so upset at work and pi$$ed that it was bc of them that it was so bad and they have affected every facet of my life. It is not an excuse. I have NEVER gotten a bad report. EVER. My world was turned upside down.
I am pi$$ed that xh pretty much confirmed they were f'ing around last year this time when he was sending me texts that he loved me. And she was sneaking around with him, clearly knowing he was married with kids. F THEM!
So I sat there falling apart at work bc all I could think about is how she was at work all pregnant and happy and thinking everything was fine. Me and the kids are struggling. It is very hard, and they are happy as can be. I hate them, but what I think about her... OMG....
I am so mad. She will never have any idea of what she has done and that ticks me off even more.
