This is terrifying - I hope you understand

[Shakspr]

Nothin' much going on here. GAL'g, DB'g. Internalizing the fact that I am already divorced, and as far as W is concerned, have been since as much as a year ago.

That actually makes it easier. I can be more consistent from now u/t the state of TX says the D is final. Whatever I have from this point forward, with or without W, will be a new thing entirely. We will simply have a shared history to learn from or discard as we see fit. However, life is multi-layered. Read on.

Joked/flirted with W last nite. She is working out and looking better than she has in years (so am I). She asked me how she looks. I said pretty damn good and her new "take-charge" attitude is attractive regardless of the other stuff going on. She smiled, and later was lingering (fully clothed) in the bedroom after she took a shower. She said, "Do I really look that much better." I said, "It is taking all my self-control not to act exceedingly male right now." Smiles again. And when I said, "Hey, any time you want to cheat on your D with your husband, I know a guy." She laughed, "Like an affair...ooh." We touched hands only and she left.

I lost sleep over that moment, but it was worth it.