.... just got spewed. Classic. First one in a long time. .
Knew one was coming. He mad cuz you arent playing....oh well, succks for him. His choice, this. There may be more. Do not engage.
Originally Posted By: Shining
I think I may need to get out with people. I don't have friends now that are comfortable around me, and I don't care to reach out, all jobless and rejected, and meet new ones. It scares me. I feel weird. But it's time to go back to the Life store.
I get this. I really do. I know there is an emphasis on here about GAL and people think they have to run out and do all these things and join all these groups. Really, to me it means to just think about you for once. Think about something you may like to try or learn. Doesnt have to be this big committment. But it is important not to isolate yourself. That just adds to the down feelings. There are things at libraries, meet ups, through parks departments. You dont even have to talk to anyone at first if you dont feel up to it. Just think about something that may interest you and find a way to incorporate it into your life a bit.
Originally Posted By: Shining
This is another thing I'm learning about me.... Self inflicted 2x4 coming... I have explored some of my issues, but not all. I have wiggled my way out of some uncomfortable stuff, or shut down, or didn't trust the counselor enough to share, or whatever excuse I choose at the moment to skip stuff. And I don't know what, and I don't know why. I read anything I can get my hands on. I try to apply what I learn. I want to be so independent and figure it out, but I'm not really accountable to anyone now to know if I am doing it...except here .
I don't trust my instincts right now in choosing an IC. How have any of you all found good ones?
I can tell you why...cuz I lettered in it...it is fear. Fear of figuring it out. Fear of what it means. Fear of having to do anything about it. It is hard, hard work to face your stuff. But, man, when you do, it is life changing. You do have to get past the really crappy parts of digging into things you would rather not face, but, I promise you, if you can, you will never regret it.
It took me 4 tries with different therapists before I found my angel. I just kept trying because it was too important. When I went to her the first time, I just knew.
This is important, S. The most important thing you can do for you. But you have to be 100% committed or it doesnt work.
Facing the fear requires a leap of faith. Take it, my friend.
