Need to figure out how to move forward (thread #4)

[shodan]

Last night I went back to my martial art for the first time in 3.5 months. It was a little weird to be back, but many folks told me that they had missed me. Felt good to hear that. I am not sure whether or not I will continue with it long term, but for now it gave me an hour during which I barely thought about my situation.

When I saw my W yesterday (before work, after work before going to the martial art), I was very positive, told her that what she was cooking smelled great but spent my time outside with my S7 throwing a baseball. I then hung out with my kids before I left for my class. When I got back my W asked how it went, I spoke briefly with her about it but nothing deep.

This morning I was again super positive, worked out in the morning and then went to work. Said a very nice "Have a great day" to my W as I left.

Some positive things to note:
- My W came home from NYC on last flight out on Tuesday night rather than stay until Wed
- She effectively promised my S7 that she will not travel next week (if she were in a full fledge A, would she spend the following week in Boston?)
- after she texted me to say she was going to try to not travel next week, I texted back a few hours later that "the kids definitely will appreciate that but we also understand that you have got to do what you have to do". She texted back “F this job” and I wrote back "sorry to hear that"
- She told me last night that the travel is killing her and she is frazzled.Not sleeping, super stressed, etc. I just listened and did not do anything to comfort her
- When I got back from martial arts last night, I noticed that she appears to have finished His needs, Her needs and re-read a letter I gave her a few weeks outlining my stance (aka I want to work on M, see more value to us in R than in D, but she is on her journey and needs to do what she needs to do, if we do decide to work on the M I will be fully committed but we need to forgive ourselves and each other and not dwell on the past, we both have a lot of decisions to make, etc.)

So, mostly positive signs but I am not reading into it. I will continue to march forward as a confident, strong, and fun man.

What will I continue to do:
- Detach, detach
- GAL
- Be confident, strong, fun and social
- Do not mention the A or the M/R
- Be kind, don’t be mean
- Be a great father
- Listen/talk when necessary, but don’t get too deep