Hi ft, I wanted to chime in about how you get sad watching TV and having something remind you of the past...I did the same thing. I couldn't listen to the radio because every love song, you left me song, can we make it song, etc. cut like a knife! That's normal for where you're at right now. It gets better. I can listen to songs now (still a few that get to me!) and see happy couples with long M's on TV or in movies and not get sad (again, sometimes it still hurts). It will slowly start being less and less painful as you start to move forward. This is why GALing is so important. Go out and make new memories that H isn't a part of. Talk about things other than your M and what H is doing.
Things are still fresh for you, ft. It WILL get better if you do what you need for YOU. You will make it. And you will come through this a better person for it!
