Do you want to have lunch with him? And I mean really?

If you don't, don't go. Let him know you're just not there, yet, if ever.

(your concern about his "are you made at me" text is telling. Are you mad at him?)

DB can do many wonderful things for us. But we need to know where we want to go.

And right now, it seems you're unsure. Work that out. Take your time. It's a very important question.

I believe that sometimes we have to do difficult things but we also have to listen to our gut, our intuition. If your gut is screaming at you "don't do this," then don't. At least not right now. Your H left but he's seemingly stuck, still doing things that make you uncomfortable and make him not the partner for you. At least not right now.

You've grown, changed, wrestled with some very difficult questions, with more to come. You're just beginning to see what might be possible.

About vulnerability: "Staying vulnerable is a risk we have to take if we want to experience connection.”

Being vulnerable includes being open to your needs.

Be kind to yourself.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss