Doing pretty ok the last few days. H got his apartment which I'm glad as I know he was stressed and now he'll have a place to live and that he can bring the kids. Funny that yesterday he tells me he's all moved in when he hadn't even told me he got it ( granted it was just the previous night that his app was accepted).
I'm kind of in a whatever mindset- I'm even looking at some meetups and social activities to do when I don't have the kiddos. We will see how things go- I still have hope but I deserve to have an H that has "done the work" as much as I have and is ready to do the rest together. If and when he gets there, maybe I'll still be interested. It's freeing the way I feel- I'm not worried I might upset him or he will feel unloved if I back off. He's seen my changes and the work I've done. Now it's up to him.
This is weird- I guess it's what lovingly detached feels like? Hope it lasts.
Me 41 H 40 M 20 T 23 S 19,16, 8 D 13 BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015 Life is about daring greatly, about being in the arena- Brene Brown
