Nitty in a Nutshell (Help! I'm in a nutshell!)

[GoatGal]

I have used a spreadsheet in the past and reading the above ^^^ has got me committed to going back to it.

It really helped me clarify trends in interactions with GUBU and also keep me on track with my own stuff.

Keeping a record of how I was sleeping, eating, GALing, really made it clear that allowing myself to spin and think about what he was doing had a really negative impact on my overall well-being.
I could also see just how many bad nights and stressful days I had, and how doing specific things improved how I felt. It was right there in black and white.

Just going back and logging some stuff from over the last few weeks, I could see where I dropped the DBing ball. There were times when he reached out to me and because I had my head stuck on some stupid negative thing, I missed the opportunity to feed on the positive.

I could see direct cause-effect.

For example, EVERY TIME he has come here and I have been mysteriously out GALing, he has backlashed the next day with cutting all contact, and, most peculiarly, specifically not telling me he was on his way, just showing up.

And then going out of his way to avoid me.

Hmmmmm...

I guess he still cares!

Hah!




---GGG