still holding on - 4

[u-turn]

No offense taken - (I'm not sure I am very offend-able any more). I know to relax - let things unfold.

I am trying to keep an open mind and observe, stay pleasant, and be the lighthouse.

I am still working on my issues. I had somewhat of an epiphany yesterday about my confidence and strength (mental, physical, emotional) - I am working on that - I need to show her what I used to be. Regain in these areas. My business has suffered so badly that it is hardly recognizable - I will focus on that and stay strong for the kids. This will help me too as I am depressed about the business too - it all just snowballs.

I have often tried to put myself in W shoes - tried to understand the situation she is in - tried to believe that she is trying or will try to sort things out. It does help me to think this way - it really cannot be easy on her either. I wonder if she does the same (put herself in my shoes).

We talked about that when we went to MC at one point. I disregard much of what happened there because she wasn't ready, and I don't think I was either - I was still in panic mode. I do hope to go back to a different MC some day.

Thanks Dawgy