keep your chin up Dp. Its tough, but you are new to this. It may seem completely hopeless right now, but if you can hang in there for a couple for a bit, you never know what the future holds. The WAW mood and thinking can, and usually does soften especially if you keep to the DB principles of GAL, 180, and PMA.
Me: 42 W: 32 Married 7 years together 8.5 S1: 7 S2:7 Bomb #1: 09-16-13 Recon #1: 11/13 A discovered 04-03-2014 W filed D 05-19-14 but never served me I filed D 12-02-2014 S 05-31-14 Divorced 5-19-16