On the brink, need a miracle

[Onguard]

Thanks for the comments. The A has ended and w says that she has had no contact in over 3 months. However, the OM is the one who ended it and she is missing him badly. Her actions over the past 8 months have been horrible. They are clearly the actions of a person who had totally checked out of the M and was moving on. Now I have a small chance to save my M. My emotions are telling me to save it but my logic is telling me to move on without her. And since I am here I guess you know which side is winning.

Detaching has been a serious challenge for me as well. We have been together for over 30 years, since the age of 13. It still does not seem real. I wake up every morning and think, is this really happening? Yes it is.

The other big challenge I have is my fear that either the OM will change his mind about her or that she will find an OM2. I know that I cannot control her and I need to focus on myself, On my process and on being the best I can be at all times. Trust the process, work the process, execute.