3 months after BD, the roller coaster ride hurts

[devotee]

I came home from work Saturday and he was in the bedroom with the door closed. I went for an hour long bike ride on my own. When I came back he was in the living room. He asked to talk. He apologized and said he just so confused and lonely he wanted to feel "different" so he drank. He was sober and was extra sweet to me all night. Very affectionate and kind of kissing my butt.

We've been doing good since he apologized. He hasn't drank anymore and he suggested we don't have alcohol in the house anymore. That night he drank he drank the last of a gift of pear vodka a friend gave to me.
We've been sick and just kinda camping on the couches watching movies and tv shows. I had my IC appt yesterday, it was very helpful. We have our second MC appt on Thursday and I'm looking forward to it.

Thank you for your kind words Card, that is indeed the path I'm trying to take. I went for another good bike ride today to have some "me" time. I've been trying to stay positive as well. If I keep myself from complete highs and complete lows and just stay on a mellow realistic course, it makes the process quite a bit easier to deal with.
As usual, small steps.