I seriously can't stop trying to CONTROL the situation! I'm glad though that this last 'attack' DID NOT reach h.
I won't speak to him about any thing in my previous post...it is so boring for him to be around someone that is so needy all the time! I bet his imaginary gf wouldn't behave this way! I'm only adding more fuel to my pyre by continuing to WANT things from h that he can't give right now.
I'm letting it go. I just read into his statement (ie, I wasn't thinking about going to lunch with you) and reacted on pure emotion!
Emotional response is what got me into this d the first time...I was mad, upset and filed. I need to practice more self control and give my h the benefit of the doubt.
Don't worry none of this will get to h today! I'm going to let him drive the pace of this reconciliation. I'm sure if I let him drive I'll learn lots more self control and trust.
Thanks for the whack! I'm so glad you are there for me when I need a slap upside the head!
