Just got back from first MC session. Not too much accomplished since 1/3 of the time is dedicated to insurance/forms/program overview. MC will meet with each of us individually next week, then back together, then 4 weeks of solution based therapy should we decide to proceed.
Just talked about the basics- our history, current status, how we got to where we are now. We both seemed pretty honest about things and i felt like we both understood where the other was coming from. W said this was basically a last ditch attempt and that she feels a lot of 'mommy guilt.' OM was brought up (by W) as a current hurdle and the seriousness of their relationship, but I didn't want that to be the main focus, so no contact letter was not addressed. I did say that I didn't feel they could be friends if we were trying to R.
W did start to cry a couple times. She expressed anger at me for moving back to the house, so I briefly explained my reasoning behind it (wasn't my idea to separate, wanted to be with the kids). We agreed that our approach right now was trying to build our friendship since we had gone on so long without much positive communication. MC indicated we had some positives working in our favor, especially giving this a shot after being S for a year.
As we left (drove separate) we talked about this week's plans. W mentioned coming over Thursday for dinner and possibly staying over. Not sure if I feel worse or better about things. On one hand it was painful to hear W say she was not attracted to me right now and had gotten used to being S, but on the other hand she showed emotion, is sharing her feelings and seems to be giving an honest attempt. Suppose that's how MC starts, huh? Patience continues...
