still holding on - 4

[u-turn]

I said that about too much conflict just because I do not really know how this will work, how we will react to it. I know how we used to react to high stress situations, but don't know any more.

All in all, I can control how I will react, but don't know and cannot control how she will.

I don't think there will be conflict - I assume that as usual we will be amicable, friendly and helpful to each other. (when I say things like that, none of this makes any sense).