I promised myself that I would go dark this week except for necessary communications. I haven't talked to him since he left on Saturday night except for kid exchanges (which have happened every day since then). I've been light and breezy and tried to display a PMA each time. I'm trying to build up his trust after Saturday.
He was distant today and I had to bite my tongue several times as he was rushing D7 to get her things together to leave. ("Because you just can't stand another minute here, apparently!") Then he asked me if I had an interest in buying a coupon book (school fundraiser for D7). I said yes, we should buy one, and H said, "I'm going to buy one, but I wanted to see if you wanted to order a separate one for yourself."
It's the little things, isn't it?
I stumbled a little bit and then just said very blankly, "That's a bit of a loaded question for me right now." He apologized (and it did seem genuine). Then I noticed he slowed down and stopped rushing D7. When they left, he let D7 go out the door but he stayed back and asked me if I was okay. I said I was and asked if he was okay. He said he was okay too, and left.
Part of me wishes that I'd just said I didn't want my own book and left it at that. But, in a way, I'm encouraged by his response. He did seem to be checking on me in a genuine way. Of course, now I'm desperately fighting the urge to call him and ask if he's upset.
