So just an update .... I went back and read the first few pages of my sitch just to landmark where I was and where I am now. Atleast in my sitch there has not been serious D talk for some time (Knock on wood)
So last night as scheduled I have S call her, I was folding laundry and honestly not hanging on every word. She chatted with him, asked how I was (This is new) and even told him to have me call her later. I thought about calling her ... was watching the game then my roomate dropped the bomb, she is getting married, selling the house, I have 60 days ... give or take to find a new place, so the stress has gone up a bit. Rent here is cheap, good location, and I can have my Lab (Family dog I refused to let go of) .... so I was looking at places, stressing out and decided that was no frame of mind to chat with her.
Dropped off S this morning, we briefly chatted, she asked if I read S pages, I told her I hadn't, but would (This disappointed her) .... I told her he did clear all this weeks homework ... then I asked how she was ... she was not good, (PMS time .. its not unusual) so I smiled and hugged her, she hugged back hard. She mentioned her arm was tingling and she had not slept, she wanted to call me but didnt want to wake me up, I told her I was in and out all night due to the news on the place I am at, she told me she hates her life, I tried to be positive and validate, told her she seemed to be on the right path, shared a touching story our S did with me last night ... and she replied that she is the evil one, that she looks horrible, I again was just being supportive. I told her that I really hoped she had a great day. Then I left. I did TM her just to tell her I hoped her day was going well around 11, she replied "Its OK" .... then "Sorry I'm just really down" I replied "Its ok, I know you were having a bad morning, would you like to have dinner?" (180 for me here) she replied "Maybe" I just left it at that ... figured anything more would be pursuing a touch much. I think I will just go ahead with dinner plans at my place with S and let her be.
One of the things we discussed Sunday was the fact she felt I was not calling nor texting... so I am on the ropes of if I should make an effort to contact a little more now or not. I know she does not like the fact no one in her family will call and check in on her. I am still thinking about this ... might just call to chat this week and see how that is accepted ... a little experiment if you will.
