So I got The Solo Partner through amazon. We have stuff coming from amazon all the time. A bunch of stuff came the other day for H so I set it aside. I didn't realize it but my book came s in a box with other stuff he'd purchased so I didn't see it.
He texted me yesterday saying, "so that book you ordered is in my box." Oooops. So yeah, he knows I got it. I asked if he would mind dropping it by or if I could come get it, he said he would drop it by in the morning. Sure enough it was on the welcome mat as I walked out the front door this morning.
Oh well, at least he knows I'm trying, right? I would have preferred he not see that but we still share an amazon account and I like it that way (meaning we're not divorced) so I'm choosing to see the plus side here.
Anyway, I got exactly 2 hours of sleep last night. A migraine coupled with insomnia was brutal. I may have to take a power nap because my butt is dragging. 2 hours of sleep means about 5 hours of Divorce Remedy reading though. Did lots of underlining, journaled a bit about some goals and generally day dreamed about H coming home. That's a hard think to NOT think about.
In the meantime though, we are getting along great. I mean, we don't talk really outside of business texts but those texts are at least friendly, LOL. I'll take what I can get.
I was reading a bunch of posts earlier and they happened to be by men and I noticed a theme of desperately wanting to be touched. I wonder if I started hugging H hello and goodbye if that would be a good thing, a friendship thing, not a pursuing thing. What do you think about that? Maybe just goodbye?
He has initiated both hugs we've had since BD and they've been great but it would be a complete 180 for ME to do that. He'd love that and notice it, I think. If I wasn't too forward (cleavage thrusting in his face, lingering, etc - LOL), I think he'd take it as the loving, heartfelt, friendly gesture I mean it as.
