MOVING UP MOVING ON

[Ambivalent]

Well I had an awesome day yesterday for my b-day.

MUCH different from where I was last year.

My oldest daughter who has " issues ", made the most effort ever for my day!

She contacted me two days prior my day, and asked to get together. We then mad arrangements to see her condo, meet her roommate and then go to lunch. She got me a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a bottle of Channel no.5 toilet.

We had a lovely lunch and I was off. She was very affectionate, hugging and kissing. No stress, no awkward moments. She is growing up...YAY!

I came home to two b-day presents, a bouquet of flowers and a romantic note . The flowers and note were from JTM.

Later I went to dance class and tradition is, the birthday gal or guy gets danced with by the class. I was exhausted... then the gang went to the dining room/bar for our usual dinner-drinks time.

What a difference from last year!!!

Last year I was miserable, fighting for my sanity and marriage. Trying to muddle through class with so much pain and distraction.

For those who read me, PLEASE... keep on GAL, for it WILL get better. Perfect no, but so SO much better. Once I let go, and allowed myself to see it was exactly as he said ..." not me but him...", my eyes were immediately opened and healing began.

Swing dancing and the gym have been my saviors. I've lost over 60 pounds and I'm trying NOT to lose anymore.

Hugs to you all!