I'm not sure I can be around him. At all. Without going cuckoo. Is it ok to do nc for self-protection indefinitely? DBing and smiling and acting like this doesn't hurt is like chewing off my own arm.
Yes.
But...let go of the black/white, either/or thinking if you can. NC is for self-protection and it's for today. When you wake up tomorrow, you can decide what you need to do for that day.
You're attempting to live far in the future when all you really have is today.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
