still holding on - 4

[u-turn]

thanks cali - I feel like a full 2x4 is in order.

I know that waiting fir the A to die is what I need to do (I know statistically she may be close to the end (in the shortest A's)? - or not, but I cannot count on that and cannot count on it not being a long one).

If there out outward signs of it, I have to act. I am just pulling back and observing. She is pursuing me now and I am trying to make my detachment keep me strong. I don't want to just be drawn back in and it all start over again.

I have read about the pursuer.... cycle (but cannot find anything on that now). When I read it before, it described what I think is happening with me. I tend to rush back and ruin progress.

Anyone know about how an A dies on its own - cold turkey end vs. slowly fizzling out to nothing? and signs of either?