I wonder where random moments of panic come in. I'm fine and dandy all day long and then suddenly a stray thought comes across my brain and I'm nervous and anxious again.
If and when he wants to work on us, he'll let me know. He does know and understand I'm not "for" a break up and I want like hell to work on it. I don't need to peruse this or "make sure he knows". He knows.
I think I'm circling back to the "a huge part of what broke us up was my nonavailability to him, and this -feels- like the same old sh*t".
I need to relax and detach.
BF:40 M:33 SD: 12 T: 8, never married, no kids together BD: 8/4, "I'm just done", "...too tired and burnt to try". PA confirmed 8/5 "It happened, but it's been over for almost a year".
