My mother finally called back. So silly - all over a Facebook post.
Ran a couple of errands with my good friend today. She asked about my status and I realized... I'm just tired of talking about him. Tired of thinking about him. Tired of wondering what he's doing and why he's making these choices. I'm not feeling serene like yesterday but it is nice to not feel so utterly invested anymore.
I hope he finds his way because he and my kids deserve for him to be healthy. I don't even want to think about what it would be like if he and I came back together. I'm too tired of the drama to imagine it. I'm interested to see how my life evolves from here.
God grant I can persist in this place after he returns from his trip. That's my greatest desire at the moment.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
