Wow! I just found the ghost journal I kept daily after BD. There is some crazy caca in there. Now, almost 9 months later I feel pretty good. I'm sure I will be sad tomorrow. I hope that all goes well and it's quick, smooth, and finished. I know I'm not finished with stbxh-just feel kind of embarrassed with his behavior and I'm married to him. That sounds very superficial I suppose. I just remember when I started hanging out with h, everyone said he was such a great guy. Not to miss out. I am grateful for my time and 3 beautiful babies. This is not an ending I imagined. Now I think, "this guy? Really?"
Fingers crossed for tomorrow.
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
