My goal is to move forward with my life, mourn my loss, but I'm not ready to close the door on my marriage yet. I wish I knew how to stop loving him, I can't even be mad at him for what he's doing or done because I understand WHY.
Just wanted to say this resonates with me. Thanks for putting it into words.
In regard to meds, I'm on an anti-depressant for hormonal issues and I feel like they keep me so stable. I still feel but it's not out of control. It's a chemical-science thing, not a weakness/will-power thing. No shame.
BF:40 M:33 SD: 12 T: 8, never married, no kids together BD: 8/4, "I'm just done", "...too tired and burnt to try". PA confirmed 8/5 "It happened, but it's been over for almost a year".
