Lisa, vent away. This is a great place to do just that.
Originally Posted By: LisaB
I keep thinking about whether I really want him back or I just want to "win" for my ego.
I thought this too, for a while. That I only wanted him back to "win" and perhaps for the pleasure of being the one to turn him down once he came crawling back. Now I'm not really sure I want him back at all, I'm still trying to figure that out. Weekends like this one make it hard to figure out, we had friends over last night, had a great time. I guess I don't understand why he would want to leave our life at all, it's pretty good, even now. Maybe when I stop trying to figure that part out it won't be so hard to let go.
