I'm very sorry that things aren't working out for your family. You have been more than willing to work on things and yes, living w/a mlcer can be very trying and frustrating. You've told him how you feel, now live your life to the fullest and let the chips fall where they may. You've got several months to get things in order before you make your final decision about your marriage. Use the time wisely and get your ducks in a row.
Whatever you decide to do, we are here for you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
