No real advice to offer these days (going through a crazy roller coaster week of my own), but just wanted to send some hugs your way. The ups and downs of this are jarring to me sometimes. I am almost a year into this situation, and still break down into tears at least once every couple of weeks (this week, every couple of days!).
And, I think it may even have been you that said that growth often comes right after a period of chaos and struggle. Maybe that's where you are.
