Just got off the phone with H after he spoke D7 before she went to bed.

We're supposed to go to the beach tomorrow at 12:30.

Here's how it went:

H: I just wanted to see if you wanted to talk to me about anything about tomorrow.

Me: Well, we have to be there at 12:30 to meet everyone so what time should we leave do you think? And what time do you want to come over?

H: We can leave at 12:00 and I'll come with some waters and drinks and some snacks and stuff.

Me: Um, ok. Well will you have eaten or do you want to eat here or do you want to eat at the beach? I've got most of D7's snacks and a ton of fruit here so don't feel like you need to bring anything in that department.

H: How about I bring D7 some [insert local food place]. she can eat right before we leave. I'll be by at 11:00

Me: ok. That sounds good. Thank you.

H: Yeah. Ok. See you at 11.

Great convo, no?

I don't know what I wanted but jeez. Am I supposed to bring him a towel? Why was he acting like I just had to show up and he would bring everything for D7 like without his presence we'd be lost on the beach. Oy. I'm making nothing into something silly, I know, but I have nothing to go on. EVER.

He was distant on the phone. Never asks anything. He only wants to come to the beach for D7 which is nice but what about ME?!

I'd almost rather go to the beach without him because then it'll be fun for D7 and I rather than me having to feel him out the whole time.

I don't want to go.


M: 37 H: 36
M: 13 T: 18
D: 7
Bomb: 6/30/14
Separation: 8/11/14

Be strong enough to let go and wise enough to wait for what you deserve.