The Waiting One (and tired of it)

[Atsbaby]

So I was really emotional listening to the sermon. Everything he was preaching was in line with everything I'm reading about, being more positive and that God wants what I want and if He can't give it to me, I'll be rewarded in some way, bigger and better.

"What God joins together, no man can separate." Just saying Clark! But I understand free will, so I guess if Clark stays stuck then I'll be rewarded bigger and better (even though I'm still stuck on Clark. God knows why, I sure don't!)

So my gf and I go grab dessert afterwards and she is so stuck on the @$$hat that Clark has become. I haven't even told her everything! I know she wants what's best for me, but she really brought me down. She just doesn't get it. I tried telling her that he's not in his right state of mind, and she agrees but then goes on with her rambling that I deserve better and shouldn't wait for him and blah, blah, blah. I love her, but was so glad when we parted ways!

When I got home, I was ready for bed. I was very emotional all evening and just wanted the day to be over. Clark was kind and wished me a good night sleep. I hate being so attached to him. It hurt to watch him leave. For whatever reason, I had the house phone in my hand and decided to look to see if he called anyone, glutton for punishment! Instead I found that he had *69 a few numbers...you checking up on me Clark? I'm sure he was disappointed since they are all sales calls, lol.